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F**k
Monday, December 04, 2006 @ 11:00 PM
I've been sooo f**king mad..angry..frustrated...
pissed...wif alot of stuff sial..!! Arhhh..!! N tads y I havent been online tad very much at all...
Im sooo f**king mad...angry...frustrated..pisses...wif..
~alot of f**king people whom I called FRIENDS...!!!
:they r simply NOT there when I wanna hang out wif them sial..!!
:when I asked them out they will NOT be free..& give all d lame..'as usual' excuses...like...
'ohh..i've plans already'
'hmm..opss sorry cant i got appointment'
'alahai..im going out wif my frends/bf'
den d 'best' part is tad they say some other time k..
n when they say tad I usually take tad they really mean 'some other' time..
like maybe d next day or next week kinda thing...
But NO...its like..theirs 'some other time' means tad let juz forget about it..
pissed...wif alot of stuff sial..!! Arhhh..!! N tads y I havent been online tad very much at all...
Im sooo f**king mad...angry...frustrated..pisses...wif..
~alot of f**king people whom I called FRIENDS...!!!
:they r simply NOT there when I wanna hang out wif them sial..!!
:when I asked them out they will NOT be free..& give all d lame..'as usual' excuses...like...
'ohh..i've plans already'
'hmm..opss sorry cant i got appointment'
'alahai..im going out wif my frends/bf'
den d 'best' part is tad they say some other time k..
n when they say tad I usually take tad they really mean 'some other' time..
like maybe d next day or next week kinda thing...
But NO...its like..theirs 'some other time' means tad let juz forget about it..
F**k sial..!!
Hello...!! Hello..!! Hello...!!
Althought whenever u guys say tad to me...I'll be like..
"ohhh..its ok..u enjoy urself k"
But d fact is in my heart Im saying like...
"wat d hell sial..?? i ask u out u give me d 'NO' ans..But when u ask me out I'll always without fail give u a 'YES' ans sial..!! u go & bloody hell enjoy ur f**king day"
Arrrhhh....!!
N im soo d f**king mad..angry..frustrated..pissed...since last Wenesday till Sunday... Arhhh...!!
WENESDAY&THURSDAY
Hello...!! Hello..!! Hello...!!
Althought whenever u guys say tad to me...I'll be like..
"ohhh..its ok..u enjoy urself k"
But d fact is in my heart Im saying like...
"wat d hell sial..?? i ask u out u give me d 'NO' ans..But when u ask me out I'll always without fail give u a 'YES' ans sial..!! u go & bloody hell enjoy ur f**king day"
Arrrhhh....!!
N im soo d f**king mad..angry..frustrated..pissed...since last Wenesday till Sunday... Arhhh...!!
WENESDAY&THURSDAY
N Im pissed out tis TP RAWKS!! thingy..which was on d 29/11-1/12...I went wif Niwa...N I thought tad we r gonna go there for d whole 3days event thingy...But NO..!! 1st day we when off at 2pm..den 2nd day we stayed untill d event ends at 6.30pm..thank god..n tad was onli becoz of Hady Mirza k..!! den 3rd day we never even go.. Stupid sial..!! I thought when I ask her to join me in d event she could like juz bloody hell committe herself for 3days at TP..But NO..she cants..instead she had her PL thing..den she would rather go out & watch movie den going for d 3rd day..
Stupid sial..!! I was dam really hoping tad I could juz enjoy & have fun during d 3days event.. But NO..!! I cant...coz of some ppl who r juz soo f**king selfish... Is it tad hard to juz committe urself to a 3days event..n its not even a 3days camp lah dei..!! F**k sial..Im soo pissed becoz of it..!! N some more d 3rd day was suppose to be a super-duper fun day sial..as there were dragon boat..games..n even a concert at nite sial..!! some sort of clubbing like...
But NO..!! Tad all I cant experience & enjoy coz I have no one to go since she has already make plans wif ppl to go & watch movie wif.. F**k sial..!! N d stupid & hello knock2 u not thinking ehk..?? She can still tell me to go on d 3rd day if I want to go... Wat d f**king hell sial..??!! I go alone..?? Ya rite..?? I thought you were d 1 who was suppose to accompany me during d whole 3days event thingy...But NO...!! Arhhh....!!
FRIDAY Im still pissed coz we were not going to d last day of d TP RAWKS!! thingy... Arhhh...!! So I decided to sms/call 2 of my frends to ask if they wanted to follow me to Vivocity.... But NO..!! I never hear a reply from them... So I ask my sis... N NO..they didnt want to go.. F**k sial..!! But Im sooo thanked tad my mom wanted to accompany me...so ya..I when wif her..instead of my sooo 'busy' frends..sis... F**k them all...!!
I got a call from channel5 ppl yesterday telling me tad I won a pair of tixs to Hady's showcase at MOS... :) I was dam happy nak mampos k..!! Like hello its at MOS sial.. How cool is tad... Way cooler than anything sial... So I wanted to ask Niwa along...so msg her...But its was a NO ans...she said tad she wanted to wtch movie... I was like.. Huh..?? Watch movie againg sial tis gerl...
K..wat ever lah ehk... Den I proceed to call Izzah..den told her about it..N was like sooo suprise wif her reply sial...she siad tad...
'i dont go to tis kind of place..i dont go clubbing'
I was like..Wat d hell sial..??!! I never ask u to go there & clubbing lah...!! I juz wanna u accompany me go there & see Hady perform lah..NOT clubbing..N ya..as if u dont go to tis kind of places..not now I know but 1 day Im sure u'll go..to juz experience it k..!! N tad Im pretty sure k..!!
'i dont go to tis kind of place..i dont go clubbing'
I was like..Wat d hell sial..??!! I never ask u to go there & clubbing lah...!! I juz wanna u accompany me go there & see Hady perform lah..NOT clubbing..N ya..as if u dont go to tis kind of places..not now I know but 1 day Im sure u'll go..to juz experience it k..!! N tad Im pretty sure k..!!
Arhhh...!! I wanted to ajak my sis..But I know she 'll not want to go 1..coz she sooo d f**king pemalas type k..!! So forget about her... Im soo f**king round out of time... So last on d list was Liza..so msg her all tad stuff..N in d end she dont want to go.. Sial lah..!! Wats wrong wif u ppl...?? Hello..!! Its MOS k..!! Not everyday/everyone can go there sial..N now u can go there also dont want sial..K watever lah ehk... Arhhh...!!
So NO one wanted to go..not even 1 ppl sial..!! I feel like I dont have any frends..like Im a loner sial..!! Arhh..!! Its bloody hell sux to feel tad way k..!! So I juz like when in my room & cried..I dont know y..But mayb its juz tad I really wanted to go for his showcase..N I wanted to feel going inside a club..n some more its MOS...woooww... N thanked god again..there was my mom who wanted to accompany me...I totally LOVE her sial..She is d one who will always accompany me when ver Im a total f**king loner...
I LOVE MY MOM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH...
*muack*
*muack*
SUNDAY *muack*
*muack*
I was suppose to go out wif Niwa to esplanade to watch a gig..But tis bloody hell Niwa didnt reply to any of my msges...So ya once again she BUSTED me.. Arhhh...!! N I have yet to hear anything from her..so hope tads she has a good excuses to come up...
I know some of u will think tad Im sooo bloody hell bad for taking bad...but if u were in my shoe Im sure u'll feel & talk like how I talk about them... Juz imagine u a loner...without any frends... How would u feel...?? So tads y I really admire & envy those who have bestfrends... coz I never had any bestfrends before....
Wat to do....
~Im not suppose to ask tis certain ppls to come & join me to go out...
coz she will say NO..but when it comes to her i'll have to say YES...
~Even if I said YES..i'll change it last min & say NO...let her taste her own medicine..
~But nahh..Im not tad evil k...
~I'll not change my plans last min..!! not like some ppl..wat u promise or said is not seen & done d way it should be...!!
~to spend more time wif mom than my bloody hell so called frends...
Arrrhhh..!! Im soo stupid to cry as Im blogging..I think all tis is making me emotional sial...emo nak mampos k..!! Arhhh...!!
P.S:wat I've blog today comes straight from my heart & wat my feelings r feeling rite now is d truth...I dont want to be a hypocrite...or a 2 face person... So if u got a problem reading it den dont read k..!! N sorry to Saz..coz I never come on Sunday to esplanade..coz Im dam f**king pissed...
Chow-Chin-Chow...